I love her
But I don't want to tell her
I'm scared of losing another friend,
I don't want to feel this tension or awkwardness ever again.
I don't want to lose another part of me.
I've killed myself , lost myself.
Who was I in the past?
My thoughts are drained and my emotions are everywhere yet nowhere.
Highly unlikely I find acceptance from her.
If I do, I don't want to hurt her,
I don't want to lose her.
This repeated process of changing myself. Who was I?
I remember,
Having this pain,
this sadness,
this hatred.
I don't want to let her see this, I can't
She'll hate me.
I'll change,
I'll change.
Who am i?
--A.N, 28/1/2021
Theme : Love