I'm so sleepy,
But I don't wish to sleep,
All my body aches,
I want to scream,
The moonlight shines upon me,
As I break into a hopeless despair,
Dilema conspiring against me,
And thoughts spiralling in the air.
Sounds like a jest when I wish to go back,
When it wasn't very jolly either,
I think perhaps I wish to be an idiot again,
As I see last night's roses wither,
This very heart of my own has sunk so deep,
I doubt if I could ever find it,
That feeling of must I weep,
Has been forcing me to do it,
Has my love died or have I failed to embrace?
Once craving Gentleness that calms,
Belonging in one's arms,
Am I protecting my pieces or putting myself in my own cage?
Shadows of eternal freedom linger around,
Should I let go or would I fight the battle?
What's it all about?
People hurt,
That's what I knew,
But who would've known?
That I hurt them more too?
Isn't this attack for defence?
So, would I deserve them?
No, I really wouldn't,
I'm starting to think it's me,
Maybe I'm the problem,
And the fault is mine,
Maybe I'm too pathetic to admit it,
Though I swear I always try,
And yet I'm found guilty,
Another time.
--Nyx Cael, nyx.cael_ on Instagram, 25/04/2026
Theme : Self, Others -- "Self-Blame, Mental Exhaustion, Sadness"